Power struggle

That's what I'm having with my nurse, I think. I think she thinks I'm a difficult patient. I have had wonderful relationships with my past nurses, but this one is rubbing me the wrong way. She is vague in her emails and only gives a minimum of information. I know that she can't tell me when retrieval will be - I understand this. I have had 6 retrievals. I know that you cannot predict when the trigger will be. But I have a bunch of questions for her about the process and the timing (not the specific dates mind you, just the way the timing will work) and she seems to want to only deal with me by email. That's fine I guess, but it would be a lot more efficient if we could just have one 10 minute conversation. The only time I've ever spoken to her on the phone was last week when she called with my P4 levels and said that she wanted me to start Lupron that night. I knew that my P4 check would give an idea about starting Lupron, but didn't realize it would mean starting the Lupron that night. She didn't give me a heads up before, so that meant that I had no Lupron. Why didn't she tell me to get the Lupron ahead of time, so I would have it in case I needed to start it on that day? Instead she had to call in the prescription to a pharmacy in Manhattan near where I happened to be shopping at the time. So the only conversation we've had was with me standing on the corner of 73rd and Broadway saying, "I think there's a pharmacy near here that sells fertility meds - you could try calling them...." And she neglected to tell me on that day that J and I both had to start our antibiotics that night as well. I didn't find out about that until today when I got my calendar.

Yes, I got a calendar today. I guess I should have mentioned that. It has us flying out to Denver on August 1 and me having a lining check the next day. Also the next day J is supposed to give his back-up sample. Except that we already have one frozen out there, which I'd mentioned to the nurse before. And I know that I could have my lining check done locally - I've always done that in the past before my transfers. I would like to minimize the amount of time that we both have to be out there, so we don't have to pay too much for hotel and also for cat sitting, which will be an arm and a leg in Manhattan. So I wanted to talk to the nurse about the calendar. I asked her to please call me tonight so we could discuss some possibilities. She blew me off. She sent me an email asking me to review my calendar and that she would call me tomorrow. That really rubbed me the wrong way. I have been with this nurse for a month and have spoken to her once for less than 5 minutes. I am not a bitchy, needy patient, but I would like to have the opportunity to speak with my nurse about this cycle so I know what is going on. Is that too much to ask? Is this just the Loopyron talking?

I realize that I have not been entirely coherent, nor have I fully explained all my frustrations, but I just wish it weren't so frustrating and hard to get some information. Maybe I have been spoiled by my previous nurses who would call me and patiently answer all my questions. But this one seems overworked and unable to deal with me. Ugh. Ok, rant over. I'm going to see if I can talk my sweet husband into going out for some ice cream. Let's see how this goes over...